after 6 exhausting days of non stop activity, you'd think i'd finally get to sleep well last night.
guess what, i didn't, my sleep was very interrupted and moreso tiring. so it came as no surprise when 7 rolled around that i was too tired to get out of bed.
work was AWFUL! really, sara's stuff is just so much, its not like I took over from her the day she took leave, but two days after, so the emails have really piled up. i actually run the risk of skipping something, so i decided to just print all the emails and then do it one at a time tomorrow, i better get my ass in early....
another reason why i didn't get down to doing sara's stuff straight away is that we are also one volunteer down. so the manual stuff to the bank, yipee! i get to do..... then of course we had an hour's unit meeting. also, i had to book Rob's flight and hotel. He's going to Vienna for a 3 day seminar. Lets not forget doing all the personal stuff, I had to cancel the insurance policies of the car and send the original policies thru DHL to the insurance company. In the end i left at 6.30 - but I didn't do much. I had to pass by the grocery store to buy milk and bread and while I was there I bought house slippers too! I've been meaning to buy new ones but never got that chance to, so I took the opportunity that presented itself.
I thought i'd come home and rest, as it turns out, the stuff I didn't fix yesterday still weren't fixed. now i just don't have the energy to do them. maybe i'll do them on friday.
my parents made it back ok, they seem all right. my mom said that its raining and flooding a lot. my brothers seem to be well too. that's good to know. now i'm still working on auto pilot mechanically doing what i have to. how do you guys do it? how do you build a life outside what is expected from you? how do you build the life you expect to have? i'm so clueless.
That and I have a communication problem. I can't talk to people who aren't leo for more than 5 minutes. I have no personality. I have no opinion. When asked for my point of view, I draw blanks. Seriously. this is definitely a bad sign. I need to reshape myself.
First stop, communication skills. Proposed course of action: BE MORE SOCIABLE! I'll get to do that tomorrow night for the summer birthday celebrations.
lets see if i end up being the wall flower, or a blossoming bud....
1 comment:
Wow, Grace, you're finally on your own!
At the beginning, the domestic responsibilities will get to you, but you seem to have good help so don't worry too much.
About communicating, I know how it is to have this protective bubble and just be at ease speaking to Leo, who gets most of what you have to say even before you say it. But not everyone is that wise, or that sensitive. Kudos to you for making that mental note to brush up on social skills. You were always a great conversationalist back in college, congenial and interesting. I'm sure you'll do just as well now, and I even have doubts you are as "blank" as you think you are. Maybe you think the people just aren't worth the effort. haha.
Any nice new blog look, I'm glad you're focusing on writing seriously again. I'm looking forward to reading more of the real you here.
As for me, pardon my silence in the blog world. I'm just... going through stuff now. Another one of those stupid things I got myself into. Anyway, I hope for the strength to get over this soon, to do what I have to do and just take the consequences of my actions.
So the drama.
I gotta go for now. Will blog after the 16th. *HUGS* and my love always.
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