let out...

i should not be let out early after work with the intent of shopping... I cam home with 5 bags of various things (skirt, dresses, shirts, leggings, stockings, shoes, more shirts...you get the picture) and a HUGE bill.

I haven't shopped for myself in a really long time, so i guess i splurged a little ...

now to try on my new loot...

self loathing and recluse

...funny, we both didn't want to talk but it happened and whats done cannot be undone.
powerful, you called me.
i couldn't be more powerless. i can't do anything.
....
you claimed to be the bad person.
i'm much worse. simply for existing.
i've hurt so many people, just by being me.

that makes me a horrible.horrible person.
its not a competition, i know that.
i'm bad by default and i'll have to live with it.

i can't seem to do anything right. i can't even make things right.

i'm sorry.