mixed emotions

its midnight here and i'm slowing wrapping up the contents of my mom's/my display cabinet. so much history here, so much memories. it's been the accumulation of 10 years misdaventures and travels.this has been my home for 10 years and i can't take most of them with me, and i'm not planning to...i guess where i'm moving to will be a start for me to make new adventures and new memories and making them my own.

i never thought i'd have to leave....but i guess, nothing ever stays the same.

on another weird emotion note, i didn't know how varied my cable tv here. while trying to find some noise to keep me company while i was bubble wrapping, i stumbled upon Babel. This channel airs "exotic" shows, indian, greek, spanish telenovelas, etc. To my surprise and my horror, it was showing, "My Beloved", a pinoy telenovela. After shuddering so much for two minutes, i got myself calmed down to change the channel. I never could watch telenovela's much back home, and I certainly wasn't missing home all that much that I would start watching it now.

anyway, i better get back to wrapping, i don't have much time left and i have too much s**t!

confessions

It's been a crazy couple of years with my posts being randomly vague and I apologize for it....
Honestly, I wasn't sure how I was supposed to cope with the break up with Leo and if I should delete any memory of him from the blog.

I felt that was a bit disrespectful towards the relationship, as I take it as a symbol that we never happened and 7-8 years is a long time to pretend never happened.

Even more than that, I've met someone and I'm scared. I'm scared to be happy and I'm scared to be hurt and in loving someone, that's a risk that's always there.

But I guess, it's time to come clean. I've mentioned my new beau already in this blog, so you know him already. Any references to V/Pryo/Carlo, he's just one guy.



...and unexpectedly, he's made me so happy. So here's the first of many posts of our new adventures together.