feeling invisible

its been forever since I posted. I thought i'd have more time to do this or at least more energy but I just haven't had 5 minutes to log in, even to just jot down what had happened.
remember I had some interviews to prepare for. well, the results came out and while I'm happy for the winners  just feel slightly frustrated but anyway. for various reasons, I feel down and low and invisible and just listening to the 90s music of when I had once felt that way made me feel much better.
because while I know this is a shitty feeling right now. life and experience has taught me that eventually, this will get better.
I hope.