as soon as i read this, it hit home, so let me leave this here:

The More Loving One

By W. H. Auden

Looking up at the stars, I know quite well

That, for all they care, I can go to hell,

But on earth indifference is the least

We have to dread from man or beast.

How should we like it were stars to burn

With a passion for us we could not return?

If equal affection cannot be,

Let the more loving one be me.

Admirer as I think I am

Of stars that do not give a damn,

I cannot, now I see them, say

I missed one terribly all day.

Were all stars to disappear or die,

I should learn to look at an empty sky

And feel its total dark sublime

Though this might take me a little time.

September 1957

Fallin'

 this one is on loop

Caught in the moment, not even thinkin' twice
Everything's frozen, nothing but you and I
Can't stop my heart from beating
Why do I love this feeling?
Make me a promise, tell me you'll stay with me
If I'm bein' honest, I don't know where this leads
But that's the only question, baby, don't keep me guessin'

Ooh, you are my muse
I feel so reckless
Oh, you're makin' me, makin' me, makin' me give in

Oh, baby, I can feel the rush of adrenaline
I'm not scared to jump if you want to
Let's just fall in love for the hell of it
Maybe, we'll just keep fallin'
I can feel the rush of adrenaline
I'm not scared to jump, 'cause I want you
Let's just fall in love for the hell of it
Maybe, we'll just keep fallin'

When I'm around you, I feel it in my veins
There's something about you that's makin' me go insane
We have a storm to weather, my little sweet surrender

Ooh, you are my muse (you are my muse)
I feel so reckless
Oh, you're makin' me, makin' me, makin' me give in

Oh, baby, I can feel the rush of adrenaline
I'm not scared to jump if you want to
Let's just fall in love for the hell of it
Maybe, we'll just keep fallin'
I can feel the rush of adrenaline
I'm not scared to jump, 'cause I want you
Let's just fall in love for the hell of it
Maybe, we'll just keep fallin'

Fallin' (fallin', fallin', fallin', fallin')
Fallin' (fallin', fallin', fallin', fallin')
Fallin' (fallin', fallin', fallin', fallin')

Ooh, you are my muse
I feel so reckless
Oh, you're makin' me, makin' me
Makin' me, makin' me, makin' me
Makin' me, makin' me give in

Oh, baby, I can feel the rush of adrenaline
I'm not scared to jump if you want to
Let's just fall in love for the hell of it
Maybe, we'll just keep fallin'

I can feel the rush of adrenaline
I'm not scared to jump, 'cause I want you
Let's just fall in love for the hell of it
Maybe, we'll just keep fallin'

Yeah (fallin', fallin', fallin', fallin')

We'll just keep fallin' (fallin', fallin', fallin', fallin')
Ooh-ooh-ooh (fallin', fallin', fallin', fallin')
Maybe, we'll just keep fallin'

Why (tell me)

Can’t get it out of my head - still need to find the lyrics though