Thursday, December 19, 2024

Mon amor

 i was walking a lot of winter nights with this song





Son las seis de la mañana y me da igualVoy a salir a la calle, voy a ponerme a gritarVoy a gritar que te quiero, que te quiero de verdadCon esta sonrisa puestaDe verdad que no me cuesta pensar en ti cuando me acuestoPero, nena, no imagines el restoQue si no, no queda bonito esto
Voy a ir directo a tiVoy a mirarte a los ojos, no te voy a mentirY como dos niños chicos, te pediré salirEsperando un sí, esperando un kiss
Y es que me encantas tantoSi me miras mientras canto, se me pone cara tontoNiña, tú me tienes locoY es que me gustas no sé cuánto"Gogoko zaitut", como dirían los vascosSi quieres te lo digo en portuguésEu gosto de você
Escribo todo lo que no me atrevo a decirteEn una canción que sé que vas a escucharSé que hay mucha gente que quiere desvestirtePero verte dormir es lo mejor que hay
Cuando te veo, mamá, como un Fórmula OnePaso de cero a cien, contigo implosionéDe ti me envenené, yo ya no sé qué hacerMe abrazaste y volé, te juro que volé
Y es que me encantas tantoSi me miras mientras canto, se me pone cara tontoNiña, tú me tienes locoY es que me gustas no sé cuántoMás que el olor a café cuando me levantoContigo no hace falta dinero en el bancoContigo veo París desde todo lo alto
De la Torre Eiffel, que se está muy bienMon amour, je t'aimeParece un cliché, pero no lo esContigo aprendí lo que es vivirPero ya lo ves, somos increíbles
Son las seis de la mañana y me da igualVoy a salir a la calle, voy a ponerme a gritarVoy a gritar que te quiero, que te quiero de verdadCon esa sonrisa puestaVoy a ir directo a tiVoy a mirarte a los ojos, no te voy a mentirY como dos niños chicos, te pediré salirEsperando un sí, esperando un kiss
Y es que me encantas tantoSi me miras mientras canto, se me pone cara tontoNiña, tú me tienes locoY es que me gustas no sé cuántoMás que el olor a café cuando me levantoContigo no hace falta dinero en el bancoContigo veo París desde todo lo alto

Friday, November 22, 2024

Strawberries and cigarettes






Catching up on all the LSS before I forget them


Remember when we first met?You said "light my cigarette"So I lied to my mom and dadI jumped the fence and I ranBut we couldn't go very far'Cause you locked your keys in your carSo you sat and stared at my lipsAnd I could already feel your kiss
Long nights, daydreamsSugar and smoke rings, I've been a foolBut strawberries and cigarettes always taste like youHeadlights, on meRacing to 60, I've been a foolBut strawberries and cigarettes always taste likeBlue eyes, black jeansLighters and candy, I've been a foolBut strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you
Remember when you taught me fateSaid it'd all be worth the waitLike that night in the back of the cabWhen your fingers walked in my handNext day, nothin' on my phoneBut I can still smell you on my clothesAlways hoping things would changeBut we went right back to your games
Long nights, daydreamsSugar and smoke rings, I've been a foolBut strawberries and cigarettes always taste like youHeadlights, on meRacing to 60, I've been a foolBut strawberries and cigarettes always taste likeBlue eyes, black jeansLighters and candy, I've been a foolBut strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you
And even if I run awayGive my heart a holidayStill strawberries and cigarettes always taste like youYou always leave me wanting moreI can't shake my hunger forStrawberries and cigarettes always taste like youYeah, they always taste like youYouLong nights, daydreamsWith that sugar and smoke ringsAlways taste like you
Headlights, on me (and even if I run away)Racing to 60, I've been a fool (and give my heart a holiday)Still, strawberries and cigarettes always taste likeBlue eyes, black jeans (you always leave me wanting more)Lighters and candy, I've been a fool (I can't shake my hunger for)Strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you








Wednesday, November 20, 2024

Velletri


Hoping not to miss my passion for editing, although I admit its been a minute.
I made this for Jordan and also for myself to see if I can still remember how to do this

Trollbeads

So Cristina has been on my mind for a while now, it comes back every now and then.
and so I went all out on Trollbeads and bought myself a ring and a bracelet since she got me a necklace and a pair of earrings both of which I had lost and had to buy again
:(
but it was like reconnecting with her, and I wear it often,  especially since I personalised the necklace to reflect family for our 10 year wedding anniversary. 

Tuesday, November 19, 2024

Legend

 this came up randomly on my playlist and it just stuck



YeahI'm coming, I'm comingYeah, look
Straight to the topI never stop causeI'm bringing you all downI'm coming for bloodYou better runCause I'm taking the whole townI am the man, 100 grandAnd I'm breaking my own groundI take what I want, like I'm King KongThere better be no doubt
Get out my wayIt's getting crazyHere comes a renegadeBest let me outIt's getting loudAnd I'm about to get paid nowI'm going inI never missCause I got the trainingI'm ready to blowI gotta goThere ain't no more playing
OhhNothing can stop me nowOhhNothing can hold me downOhhNothing can stop me now
I am a legendYou better never forget itYeah I am a legendAnd you better respect itCause I am a legend, I am a legend huh
Pound for poundYou going down when you come into my houseI'm coming to winNo giving inI'm laying it all outI ain't afraidNo playing gamesI'm the king and it's my crownI'm coming in hotReady or not, you're talking to me now
You think you're toughI'm rising upYou picked on the wrong manYou outta breatheI done leftYou better keep joggingYou gonna learnIt's time to burnYou need to be watchingI'm coming in fastYou gonna be lastThere won't be no stopping
OhhNothing can stop me nowOhhNothing can hold me downOhhNothing can stop me now
I am a legendYou better never forget itYeah I'm a legendAnd you better respect itCause I am a legend, I am a legend huh
I am a legendYou better never forget itYeah I'm a legendAnd you better respect itCause I am a legend, I am a legend huh

Friday, October 25, 2024

Madly

 this was on repeat a lot,




Mm-mm
Fell in love in a taxi, weMade out in the backseat, yeahYou're the only one that asked me, ifI'll do anything you asked me
I swear that we'll get it rightIf you wonder how I'm feelingJust know that I'm always on your side
I give you all of me, put you far 'bove meI'm happy when you're happyI can't help that I'm madly in loveIn love, in love, in love, uhn-uhnIn love, in love, uhn
YeahDon't know what I did before youBut I know that I adore you, ahIf you're wondering if I care, justSay the word and I'll be right there
Yeah, I swear that we'll get it rightIf you wonder how I'm feelingJust know that I'm always on your side (know)
I give you all of me, put you far 'bove meI'm happy when you're happyI can't help that I'm madly in loveIn love, in love, in love, uhn-uhn (uhn)In love, in love, uhn
I give you all of me, put you far 'bove meI'm happy when you're happyI can't help that I'm madly in loveIn love, in love, in love, uhn-uhnIn love, in love, uhn

Wednesday, October 09, 2024

Home blue October

 i heard this song and thought it was perfect for our anniversary montage





I'll smile if I want to
I'm not afraid, gonna flaunt it too
What a glow when you're living true
Yeah

I'm living for the right now
I had a few friends show me how
I take a deep breath and blow it out
Let it go

But listen I—
I can't wait to see what's around the corner
I can't wait to soar
Baby, I lie awake and I watch you sleeping
thinking it's the little things that make a home

Like dancing in the kitchen in the pale moonlight
Only care in the world is that our kids are all right
Daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

So smile at me, baby, take my breath away
With the good Lord willing, I'll be happy to say
That daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

I feel like I'm gonna win
And I'm as proud as I've ever been
'Cause I'm surrounded with some good friends
Yeah, good friends, good friends

I'm forever like a tattoo, yeah
I got to stay sticky 'cause I gotta be the glue for
My girl, my friends, my home, family, I do it all

Truly I can't wait to see what's around the corner
I can't wait to soar
But, baby, I lie awake and I watch you sleeping
thinking it's the little things that make a home
Yeah

'Cause we'll be dancing in the kitchen in the pale moonlight
Only care in the world is that our kids are all right
Daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

So smile at me, baby, take my breath away
With the good Lord willing, I'll be happy to say
That daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

We found our home
Something we can build for years
The young and old
I'll be there to wipe your tears

We all get to see
Who we grow up to be
An anchor when in doubt
An ocean when in drought

We aim for it all
We lift up these walls
To make this house our home

Dancing in the kitchen in the pale moonlight
Only care in the world is that our kids are all right
Daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

So smile at me, baby, take my breath away
With the good Lord willing, I'll be happy to say
That daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

Dancing in the kitchen in the pale moonlight
Only care in the world is that our kids are all right
Daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

So smile at me, baby, take my breath away
With the good Lord willing, I'll be happy to say
That daddy loves mamma and mamma loves him
Tomorrow we get to do it over again

Wednesday, July 31, 2024

Blue October

 So, I should have seen it coming, that some male friendships were really born out of the impossible hope of getting together. The only reason why they would stick around and be "my best friend" and do anything and everything for me. At least that's the narrative Im going with since I'm not getting a response.

Back track to 2021 when I last had a conversation with Joey because I wanted to check in on him and how they were holding up during the pandemic. and he told me that he was upset because I wasn't a good enough friend to him. A reminder to me, we stopped talking because his then girlfriend, Hershey, didn't want us talking. He married her and cut me off. when things were bad though, he would call, complain and disappear. One year for his birthday I dont remember when I wanted to check up on him, I found the wife on facebook and asked for permission to call him to check in and wish him a happy birthday.

And I told him all of this. he's like, I wasn't aware. ok, but its hard to be friends with someone who has cut you off. I keep trying because we promised each other that we would stay friends and I wanted to keep that. the line got disconnected and I tried calling him back and he wasn't answering anymore. until this day.

well, maybe not today, this past week, I wrote to him - one last time from my part and surprise surprise he didn't say anything. so I made the conscious effort of deleting his chat history. I can't erase that we were once friends and super close but I have chosen to love me. why force myself on someone who very clearly doesn't want me around.

in that respect, two songs of blue October came to mind.





Moving on


and 



this version of I Hope You're Happy

because I am moving on from him, but that doesn't mean I don't wish him well.

so try to remember that, I hope you're happy. I hope you're good. I hope you get what you wish for, and that you're well understood. and whatever your progress, I know that you'll be fine

Wednesday, July 03, 2024

moving boxes

 I must admit, to write, moving boxes with confidence in the search bar was a bit funny, then I remembered to add the word, lyrics






These days I've been nothing but a burden

At night while you're tossing and you're turning

Get high on the dust that I am breathing

Oh, oh, oh, one week to go (go)


Wake up to the absence of your body

Doors shut but you know that you can't stop me

In a box, all our memories are burning

Oh, oh, oh, one week to go


I hope you're ready cause you're gonna sleep alone tonight

We're temporary and you're moving further out of sight

Hold it steady cause we're gonna set it all alight

I'm moving boxes in, we are now separate


I hope you're ready cause you're gonna sleep alone tonight

We're temporary and you're moving further out of sight

Hold it steady cause we're gonna set it all alight

I'm moving boxes in, we are now separate


Catch up from the things we haven't heard yet

Go back to the place where we had first met

Sprawled out like reflections on the ceiling

Oh, oh, oh, one week to go


I hope you're ready cause you're gonna sleep alone tonight

We're temporary and you're moving further out of sight

Hold it steady cause we're gonna set it all alight

I'm moving boxes in, we are now separate


I hope you're ready cause you're gonna sleep alone tonight

We're temporary and you're moving further out of sight

Hold it steady cause we're gonna set it all alight

I'm moving boxes in, we are now separate


These days I've been nothing but a burden

At night while you're tossing and you're turning

Get high on the dust that I am breathing

Oh, oh, oh, one week to go


I hope you're ready cause you're gonna sleep alone tonight

We're temporary and you're moving further out of sight

Hold it steady cause we're gonna set it all alight

I'm moving boxes in, we are now separate


I hope you're ready cause you're gonna sleep alone tonight

We're temporary and you're moving further out of sight

Hold it steady cause we're gonna set it all alight

I'm moving boxes and everything that you left

I'm moving boxes in, we are now separate

Friday, April 19, 2024

oh my my

 


Oh my my

Blue October

[Verse 1]
You wear black hair, I have Blue
You look sadder than most girls do
The way you walk around
Always watching the ground, well I like watching you
Your friends they don't like me
I think they're jealous of my tattoos
I'm not a bad guy, just like wearing black
I'm not scared of anything, but saying this to you

[Pre-Chorus]
It's going down, neither of us want to be
Alone right now
C'mon, c'mon

[Chorus]
Oh, my my
Yeah, I'm loving all your warning signs
Cause I'm a sucker for you
Oh, my my
Girl you get me high
Yeah you're my type
You're danger, danger

[Verse 2]
Yeah I'll be waiting by the blacktop
Like a cigarette stain for you
Every day I just won't go away
I'm not scared of anything, but saying this to you

[Pre-Chorus]
It's going down, neither of us want to be
Alone right now
What? Whatcha gonna do?

[Chorus]
Oh, my my
Yeah, I'm loving all your warning signs

Cause I'm a sucker for you
Oh, my my
Girl you get me high
Yeah you're my type
You're danger, danger
Oh, my my
Yeah, I'm a sucker for the lonely kind
Because I'm loving all your...
Oh, my my
Girl you get me high
Yeah you're my type
Danger, danger

[Bridge]
I can
I'll go anywhere you want me, you want me to
Caught my eye
Watch us free fall
Catch me, I'll catch you too
I can
I'll go anywhere you want me, you want me to
Caught my eye
And now we free fall
Catch me, I'll catch you too

[Chorus]
Oh, my my
Yeah, I'm loving all your warning signs
Cause I'm a sucker for you
Oh, my my
Girl you get me high
Yeah you're my type
You're danger, danger
Oh, my my
Yeah, I'm a sucker for the lonely kind
Because I'm loving all your...
Oh, my my
Girl you get me high
Yeah you're my type
You're danger, danger

and back again

 I haven't been writing in forever.

access to blogger can only be from my laptop and at the end of the day I really don't feel like looking at the screen for much longer. but music also plays a huge role in my life and I feel the stress and pressure of making sure I write something when I forget, that what I listen to brings back the moments.

so I'll cheat a bit and post the songs I can remember from the past 6 months so that I can remember where I've been

Thursday, March 28, 2024

2:50

 



2:50

Mya

El tiempo no volvió a tener segundos otra vez
Se mide al ritmo en el que estás bailando
Yo te tengo en la mira desde que llegué
Me tiembla el pulso si estoy apuntando

Al ver tu tatuaje, perdí mi coraje
Que un trago me relaje, que te quiero hablar
Y si logro que el cielo te acerque y bailemos
Yo voy a rogar

Que suene una canción más lenta
Que dure un poco más de la cuenta
Quiero disimular que no me sé tu nombre
Yo quiero conocerte como corresponde

Que suene una canción más lenta
Que dure más de 2:50
Con un poco de tiempo, haré que todo encaje
Como lo hace tu falda con tu maquillaje

Me estoy muriendo pa' que sean las doce
Y que tu boca roce con mi boca y no sé tú (no sé tú)
Pero yo quiero esta noche con você, caipirinha y goce
Porque, mi niña, yo qué suerte tuve

De haberte conocido la noche perfecta
Salieron las estrellas, pero no las nubes
Y tú pudiste ver todas mis indirectas
Ay, qué suerte tuve

Que suene una canción más lenta
Que dure un poco más de la cuenta
Quiero disimular que no me sé tu nombre
Yo quiero conocerte como corresponde

Que suene una canción más lenta
Que dure más de 2:50
Con un poco de tiempo, haré que todo encaje
Como lo hace tu falda con tu maquillaje

Así cerquita, yo agarra'o a tu cinturita
Loco por esa boquita que aún no puedo besar
Mami, paremo' el tiempo, disfrutemo' el momento
Otra como tú, sé que no voy a encontrar

Bailemos esta canción, quiero verte en slow
Te acercaste un poquito y me subió la presión
Vamo' entrando en calor, ya va saliendo el Sol
Sé que estamos sintiendo lo mismo los dos

Que suene una canción más lenta
Que dure un poco más de la cuenta
Quiero disimular que no me sé tu nombre
Yo quiero conocerte como corresponde

Que suene una canción más lenta
Que dure más de 2:50
Con un poco de tiempo, haré que todo encaje
Como lo hace tu falda con tu maquillaje, yeah

(Ooh)
Mo-Mo-Mo-Mosty
Que suene una canción más lenta
(MYA)

Sunday, February 25, 2024

I’m still here

Finally an app for blogging!
Yay to technology 
https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1GsTe91tR-TBoX_Z_x7BJXJ7LNfkX2lMK
So here I am testing it out hoping I can make this work 

Thursday, January 18, 2024

ashes

 



ashes

stellar

Verse 1]
Now that I got a taste, I think that I'd suffocate
For every second that you aren't by my side
But now I'm stuck at the gate of Lucifer's estate
I fell in love with a girl I met in Hell
Thinkin' about all the things
The way you pull my strings, I love the way you turn me on
I ain't Hades, but I'm the king
I'd do anything so that I could take you home


[Pre-Chorus]
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah

[Chorus]
Ring around the Rosie, pocket full of posy

I'ma fucking blow all the ashes down

Ring around the Rosie, pocket full of posy
I'ma fucking go crazy for ya now
Ring around the Rosie, pocket full of posy
I'ma fucking blow all the ashes down
Ring around the Rosie, pocket full of posy
I'ma fucking go crazy for ya now
[Verse 2]
Now that I got a taste, I'm gonna hallucinate
I think that I am trippin' off your love
I started playing your games, you got me in a checkmate
Now you are the queen, and I'm the pawn

Thinking about all the things
The way you pull my strings, I love the way you turn me on
You're the queen, so let me be your king
I'd do anything, so that we could rule the world

[Pre-Chorus]
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah
She drove me, drove me crazy, yeah

[Chorus]
Ring around the Rosie, pocket full of posy
I'ma fucking blow all the ashes down
Ring around the Rosie, pocket full of posy
I'ma fucking go crazy for ya now