how to fix a broken heart

came across this today

and thought it was poignant, relevant and useful.

even though we may not be going through heart ache, it doesn't mean that we don't know people who aren't... and we should always afford them the space, the compassion and the tools to help them move on.

is there something in the air?

Zamora who i had hung up on in June has funnily resurrected NOW, in this weird period and goes,
Why didn't I marry you?

pause.

parang, hello? ngayon pa.... ano ba!!!!!

yun lang po.

bow.

9 years later and none the wiser

the bus is my kryptonite. he calls, I come running. I was foolish to think I was stronger than this. i'm very obviously not.

while he says i'm his biggest regret in life, he has nothing to offer me.

and when I remember the shit that I had to go through with him, there's anger and sadness and overall hurt that 9 years later hasn't subsided.

being with him was very intense, so the happiness was over the moon intense and the withdrawal was just painful.

all of this because he choose someone else and not me. and she turned out to screw him over. terribly. he wonders what his life would have been like had he stayed.

I don't want to ever go through that again. ever.

and i'm not going to give him that chance.

16 months later

I came face to face with the Bus. and I held my ground. It felt good. I was partially expecting him but it was still different to see him.

Ultimately, I got my revenge. I'm fabulous and he's screwed up. This is an episode I need to remember when I doubt the direction of my life...