snow patrol

You could be happy, And I won't know. But you weren't happy the day I watched you go. And all the things that I wish I had not said, All played in loops till it's madness, in my head. Is it too late to remind you, how we were? And not our last days of silent, screaming blur. And most of what I remember, Makes me sure, I should have stopped you from walking out the door. You could be happy, I hope you are. You made me happier than I'd been by far. And somehow everything I own, smells like you. And for the tiniest moment, It's all not true. Do the things that you always wanted to. Without me there to hold you back, Don't think, Just do. More than anything I want to see you, girl. Take a glorious bite out of the whole world. 

emo muna tayo ng konti

snow patrol, you could be happy

culpa al corazon

just a happy feel good song which is what I need at the moment

Culpa Al Corazon
Prince Royce

for posterity sake

Song is Thunder Clatter by Wild Club....
nainis lang ako kasi when revisiting the 30 day song challenge yung mga na post ko na videos with no title or artists nawala! so i could barely even remember what they were. yun lang po. 

in a remote bar somewhere

sleep: why, hello there...

me: hello. it's been a while.

sleep: It has.

me: so...maybe later, we could get together?

sleep: I don't think you can afford me.



and just like that. sleep evaded me. i'm working at my desk half dozing.... damn you sleep. 

9 years later and none the wiser

the bus is my kryptonite. he calls, I come running. I was foolish to think I was stronger than this. i'm very obviously not.

while he says i'm his biggest regret in life, he has nothing to offer me.

and when I remember the shit that I had to go through with him, there's anger and sadness and overall hurt that 9 years later hasn't subsided.

being with him was very intense, so the happiness was over the moon intense and the withdrawal was just painful.

all of this because he choose someone else and not me. and she turned out to screw him over. terribly. he wonders what his life would have been like had he stayed.

I don't want to ever go through that again. ever.

and i'm not going to give him that chance.