Boxed in

You know when you've reached the point of no return...its when he makes plans WITHOUT you and you're feeling bad about it. Its not unresonable, however, when you're in that comfort zone that you know all that he is up to and you are part of everything he does....when something spontaneous happens, you're grumpy. ok, i confess. I am GRUMPY. We made plans to see each other today but then last minute since he was with friends he hadn't seen in a while, he was going to hang out with them. I felt really REALLY bad. However, I took it in because I knew I was being unresonable, so I called, being as nice as I could be told him to have fun and I'll just be working. Now though he just called me.... he missed me too much. He compromised. He hung out with his friend a bit, and now he's on his way to me!
Hahahahahaha....I didn't even do anything! :)
Well....I'm happy and content.

ending

My contract is ending this Friday. Its for real. There are other things in place but all I can think of is going to see the Amalfi Coast, going to Sorrento and Positano with Leo....sana payagan ako.... please lang!
Things have gotten so crazy and so hectic, I forget myself and Kuya Jess. The thing with the contract? *sigh* I don't even want to talk about it anymore. I will however leave WFP, that's official, as I've received my separation papers. The upside is that there is hope, things that were set in motion have begun to move. So fingers crossed. Hope everything works out fine.
*HUG* miss you addie. Why on early did you have to change your address AGAIN?
I hope you do get to shed some light on that. How did the birthday go?
Love you!

The truth

If there was any doubt, any second thoughts about my feelings for Leo, well, there is none. Leo left today to go back to Edinburgh. His flight was at 6.30. He left his house at 4.15. I was with Leo until 12 last night. I've been out with him every night. I am physically tired. I have gotten lazy as well over the past months. I could never get up early. So, realistically, I could not have seen him off at the airport. Another factor to consider: the airport is halfway across the city from the house. I had even told him last night, that I don't think I could have made it. I tried in anycase. I set the alarm for 4am, woke up and promptly fell asleep. I woke up at 4.45 in a state of panic. I took a quick shower and rushed out the door by 5.15am. I tried calling him to let him know I was on my way, however, his phone was off. Then I really panicked. I tried again some seconds later and let him know. I was there at 5.40 and stayed 10 minutes with him (even less). His dad was there too.
So at 7am in work, I had roughly 4 hours of sleep, drove all the way to the other side of the city to see a person for less than 10 minutes, if that isn't an effort made for someone very special and someone I love. I don't know what else could manifest it.

Our anniversary was very pleasant. We spent the day together doing various errands and enjoying each others company. His weekend, plus two extra days were so nice. I miss him so much.

Addie, the UN can't give me a letter because their requirement is for me to have a work permit prior employment. At the moment its stalemate. The odds aren't in my favor as well. So we'll see how it goes. Keeping all fingers crossed.