lets just kiss and say good bye....

i have come to a realization that just because i stop blogging on this site, doesn't mean that i'm erasing my memories or that i'm hidng them, but simply the need for this particular blog has come to an end and I need to have a new blog.
I'll go over this blog, when its no longer painful to read the entries and save the photos that I would like to keep.

i should have the new blog up and running soon. accordingly to google, i only have 5 followers, so i'll email you with the new link.

it's been fun.... thank you for the memories....

re connected (and it feels so good....!)

i finally, finally made it! i have a new laptop and i'm now fixing the photos to upload. sorry for the impromptu hiatus... :D

looking forward to sharing whats been going on!

summer loving

despite all my inner turmoil and unrest, i should be grateful for all the small things:



:)

hello summer and the promise of a tomorrow .....

taken for granted

and i didn't think i'd find myself here again - but i am....
it's amazing how much i give myself - i personally consider what i give is a lot, only to be disregarded by a friend. nothing i had done was apparently good enough and was easily forgotten.
i'm not saying i should be her world and obviously, it's a good thing that she moves on and creates her own circle of friends but still....

makes it seem that the effort was in vain....

it's fine. now i know how and where i stand in her life and to what extent i should actually involve myself with her affairs.

you live and learn.

lost and found

I've been searching for this song for the longest time. Finally found it today after patiently waiting on MTV for it to be played again!

Things I did and realized today:

Moving is the best motivator for sorting through old clothes.

Moving is also the best incentive for throwing out old clothes.

I have way too many clothes - most of them I don't use.

I have too many spare socks, they are still in their packing.

Most of my clothes are in black.

I am feeling very weird and I don't know why.

easter weekend

i just spent 20 minutes editing the collage i wanted to post for my easter weekend...until i pressed the back button and lost it all...
ARGH!

i can't get the hang of this...anyway, photos in chronological order, kind of

 

 So this kinda captures the moments. I went on Friday to the Scala Santa. Saturday was walking around Rome at night, ending up with the most amazing ice cream. Sunday was a simple mass. Monday was a crazy day with Ciccio and friends, highlighted by his Bat fried. Old MacDonald and family invited us to the farm, and the vets and the surfer came as well. We had lots of great food, kite flying experience, ping pong matches and learning how to shoot some pool!

:D

mixed emotions

its midnight here and i'm slowing wrapping up the contents of my mom's/my display cabinet. so much history here, so much memories. it's been the accumulation of 10 years misdaventures and travels.this has been my home for 10 years and i can't take most of them with me, and i'm not planning to...i guess where i'm moving to will be a start for me to make new adventures and new memories and making them my own.

i never thought i'd have to leave....but i guess, nothing ever stays the same.

on another weird emotion note, i didn't know how varied my cable tv here. while trying to find some noise to keep me company while i was bubble wrapping, i stumbled upon Babel. This channel airs "exotic" shows, indian, greek, spanish telenovelas, etc. To my surprise and my horror, it was showing, "My Beloved", a pinoy telenovela. After shuddering so much for two minutes, i got myself calmed down to change the channel. I never could watch telenovela's much back home, and I certainly wasn't missing home all that much that I would start watching it now.

anyway, i better get back to wrapping, i don't have much time left and i have too much s**t!

confessions

It's been a crazy couple of years with my posts being randomly vague and I apologize for it....
Honestly, I wasn't sure how I was supposed to cope with the break up with Leo and if I should delete any memory of him from the blog.

I felt that was a bit disrespectful towards the relationship, as I take it as a symbol that we never happened and 7-8 years is a long time to pretend never happened.

Even more than that, I've met someone and I'm scared. I'm scared to be happy and I'm scared to be hurt and in loving someone, that's a risk that's always there.

But I guess, it's time to come clean. I've mentioned my new beau already in this blog, so you know him already. Any references to V/Pryo/Carlo, he's just one guy.



...and unexpectedly, he's made me so happy. So here's the first of many posts of our new adventures together.

the saddest day...

Today, has to be the saddest day.
The death of a colleagues husband.
The death of a friends day old baby boy.
The death of a high school classmates stillborn twin.

and me feeling alone and abandoned, again and again.
:(
i should not stay home on a friday night, i'll just make myself really depressed.

thankful for tomorrow

i have a job.
and in this day and age, i'm lucky to have one.
everything else is a bonus (i.e., its a job with good benefits, pay, fun colleagues, interesting work).
and now i'm secure in it.

thank you, lord, I actually didn't think this day was going to come so fast but it did and i'm grateful for it!

today

I love you, Tommy Brown (Criminal Minds, Season 7)

It was once said that love is giving someone the ability to destroy you, but trusting them not to
-unknown

For every good reason there is to lie, there is a better reason to tell the truth
-Bo Bennett

deja vu

and its exactly like February 2011...unexplained feeling of shitiness for prolonged periods. Headaches, feeling of getting sick, cold hands, etc. My last compacted wisdom tooth is trying to come out and inevitably, it'll have to come out.
I leave next week for the Philippines so I can't have it taken out before hand. Damn.
As Kari constantly asks, why didn't I have them pulled out all out once, well, the dentist didn't say I needed to have them all out. Only if they bother me. And the last one is bothering me.
As soon as it's possible (arranging leave at the office, dentist availability, etc) I'll have my last wisdom too pulled out and I'm not looking forward to it. 

2013

2013 - it's going to be great!

J.R.R. Tolkien perhaps sums it up best,

"The greatest adventure is what lies ahead.
Today and tomorrow are yet to be said.
The chances, the changes are all yours to make.
The mold of your life is in your hands to break."

with a reminder from dr. Seuss:
those who mind don't matter, those who matter don't mind

uyo i evol

letter to my dad

Hi Dad,

Happy New Year.

How are you po?

I just wanted to tell you that I went to the embassy today to get my document and I didn't know anyone at the counter.

It was funny to be just a regular applicant, I had never been one before. 

And it was then that I realized, what you do, day in and day out to deal with all the crazy people who DEMAND that you treat them like they were goddesses really resonated with me. You know I don't hang out much with the local filipino crowd here so my interaction with them is limited.

This afternoon for a brief moment (kasi I didn't have to wait so long), I caught a glimpse of what you have to deal with and I was so proud to be your daughter. 

So I just wanted to let you know, that even if the migrant workers don't fully understand or appreciate what you do for them. 

I do.

Thanks for being great, dad.

Wishing you health and happiness for 2013.