just breathe.....

 it's absolutely insane.... Feb is almost over and I'm finally getting a moment to breathe.

and I remember Jay Shetty who was recounting his experience as a monk in training, when life if hectic, learn to meditate in the thick of it. I haven't learnt that yet and I guess thats something I will have to adapt to. to learn to detach while everything is crazy and zen out so I'm not so overwhelmed.

closure this year was intense. Giuliana my partner in crime left the office and I took over more things. it was daunting and it was draining. it was 5 hours night of sleep and not even that, the files haunted me in my dreams. my list of things to do haunted me.

I had to make Jordan a bag for school. that stressed me out even more, then he was the last one without a bag and then I felt even worse.

last week I had to learn to sew and to make a bag in a week. I cried, I stressed myself and I swore. it was all so intense.

today is the first day I feel calmer. I feel at ease. this is crazy. but its all about finding balance.