a new habit

 I used to write regularly. I used to have time to write. 

I just came out of the strangest closure ever (so far!) and I need time. however, when things are crazy I need to make time in the crazy to balance myself out. I promise myself this. so I'm trying to get back into a habit. make it a habit to journal, even the mundane, even just a song of the moment. this is my space to get back - spiritually and to myself. baby steps. there's so much I want to do but I won't get anywhere if I'm not organised or into already a groove.

like exercise. as much as I want it to be about losing weight it should be about just feeling better. I'm 40 now. my body wasn't like it was before. some maintenance is required. like Spanish, I need to make an effort.

so today, even if its a random Tuesday, I decided to do things. after dropping the kids, I walked back listening to a Spanish podcast (CNN 5 things you need to know), it was 4 mins only but just to get back into a rhythm. at lunch I did my stretches and my Chloe ting 12 mins HIIT. at 5.30 I stopped working and went out onto the balcony to skate a bit. I can go faster and I'm getting the balance but I'm still very much afraid of falling and I haven't figured out yet how to stop. 

but baby steps. consistency is key right. if I can keep up exercising for 30-40 mins everyday, improve my skating and my Spanish, I'll be happy with those goals.

then I can take on more, like learning astrology and pulling out tarot again. this closure made everything so dark, so draining, I don't want that again. 2021 was demanding in so many ways. 2022 is all about making small improvements.