I'm trying to get over my latest addiction. I did a quick recap and found out that I've been indulging in it once a week, with the exception of one (which was agony). I cannot go a week without this new drug.
*damn*
Last Friday, I upped the dosage level and the effects are now wearing off. I'm crashing big time and going compeletely nuts. This is why I try to avoid bad habits: I get hooked so damn easily and I have a bitch of a time trying to stay clean. Just so you know, it wasn't a huge dosage, it was fairly minimal. God only knows what I'd be like if I take it in properly.
*damn*damn*
I'm not trying to go cold turkey, even though I know that's the only way to get through it. I have a hit and a half left. I can't just let it go.
Not yet. For now, I'll look and not touch. But when needed, I might give in.
Once its over though, it's over.
I won't ask for more.
I'll just let it be.
Hopefully, I won't ever go down that road again.
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