yesterday was the first time my friends mayra and rashad came over.
I've known these people since I started working in WFP.
I've been to their houses countless times, yet there never seemed like a good moment to come over to mine.
Their schedules were always booked and Mayra would hardly be in Rome for 3 weekends straight (proof of this is that she's flying to France on Wednesday and back on Monday, and she's only been back in Rome 2 weeks from her trip to the states).
I prepared pancit and lumpiang shanghai (kinda).
One bottle of wine was consumed by all three of us within the span of 2 hours. It actually hit me hard. After they left, I had an awful headache and couldn't do the dishes. In fact, I have to deal with the dishes after this post.
I brought out the magic sing that I had bought in January and Rashad just loved it.
He totally went for it.
He asked me to bring it for his dinner later that night.
4 Hours later, a very druken, slurish me arrived at Rashad's house across the city. I was just in time for dinner and (more) drinks which I avoided. The Karoke was brought out again. Dinner guests were: Mayra, Rashad (hosted), Sarah (Rashad's girlfriend), Liviana, Fabrizio and me.
Everyone gave it a go and we all won our 100's. Close to 1am, I made it out of there and headed home.
Having a discussion with Leo earlier on today, I told him I felt guilty about not calling Michelle about WFP. WFP now is looking for temp people. Something I "helped" another person do (she totally pissed me off when she couldn't create her own online cv. I ended up doing it for her, but then felt really annoyed. she should be able to do things on her own. if she can't, then i can't help her that much, can i?). But Mich had become a phantom. I tried to be nice, I tried to keep in touch, but she just ignores me. She does call when she needs something (like knowing when a job is available). I offered dinner at the house, however, she just never seemed interested.
Trying to reconnect, I opened the book today. And there it was, the "answer" to my question, whether i should be a good person to someone who obviously just doesn't care. Although, it also mentioned letting go of anger and guilt. I couldn't quite do that. Even though its been 5 years, it may take a little bit longer to heal. Especially since I thought I got rid of all traces of my mistakes, I found out, there was one place, I actually forgot to clean out.
Its 2pm. Time to start the day
1 comment:
sometimes, we have to go through guilt and anger to realized our mistakes. But be aware of living too long with our mistakes.. let's just allow it to pass us by =)
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