Friday, December 04, 2020

dinosaur alert

 this past week i've been feeling blah... i feel physically unattractive: fat, old, greying hair, everything. its like a funk. I wouldn't have slunk into depression or anything i just feel, blah.

i guess i must be feeling it: birthday blues.

Turning 39! ack! it's old,,,, I'm OLD. it didn't help that my ex boss didn't recognize me anymore, I felt like i just deteriorated.

i did not age gracefully.

so it comes as a weird but welcome surprise when someone said, if i could have had you for a night, or two or an hour or even 5 minutes just the two of us.

to which my reaction was WTF? followed by, where the hell is this coming from.

but i get it, the universe was tired of my pity party and just threw something to distract me for attention....

so i'll just take it as that.

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