they say that if you are blessed with a talent you do not use, your life will slowly be cursed.
i haven't written in so long and not just entries but anything else. articles, fiction. anything. i have not written anything ...
and so this short one dawned on me.
tick.tick.tick.
i tossed and turned. the clock glared 2.30 am in my face.
i tried to push out the thoughts, but it haunted me.
you're alone, the deep part of my mind thought.
you're actually lonely.
its the thought that seeps in even while you distract yourself. social media is there. instant messaging. streaming shows. everything. reading.
i've reached out to everyone, to check in. and no one has ever checked in on you replies the dark part of me.
i'm not lonely. i flipped on youtube and started watching, jimmy fallon.
i don't need anyone else. i have internet and i have food delivery.
i dont need the world.
very obviously, the world doesn't need me.
i haven't written in so long and not just entries but anything else. articles, fiction. anything. i have not written anything ...
and so this short one dawned on me.
tick.tick.tick.
i tossed and turned. the clock glared 2.30 am in my face.
i tried to push out the thoughts, but it haunted me.
you're alone, the deep part of my mind thought.
you're actually lonely.
its the thought that seeps in even while you distract yourself. social media is there. instant messaging. streaming shows. everything. reading.
i've reached out to everyone, to check in. and no one has ever checked in on you replies the dark part of me.
i'm not lonely. i flipped on youtube and started watching, jimmy fallon.
i don't need anyone else. i have internet and i have food delivery.
i dont need the world.
very obviously, the world doesn't need me.
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