i'm ok

last night the house was robbed. the part that still freaks me out is that this happened while i was at home sleeping.
not that i have much to steal at home, but they did take what they could.
they took the digital camera, which makes me sad, because i've had it for years.
they took the video camera, that makes me even more sad, as it has baby's video on it from our trip to the philippines. it has mamay on it, while he was still alive.
they took my ipod (30g). that was a birthday gift from leo 2 years ago. it had sentimental value for me.
they took my laptop. which for me is probably the thing that makes me most sad. no more chatting for now. i can't talk to the philippines during weekends online as i have no computer. no blogging. no posting. nothing.
i had all my photos on it. i had my excel sheet. i had a lot of sentimental stuff on that computer and now its gone.
of course i backed up all my photos onto the external hard drive, which they took too!!!!
they took my bag and dragged it accross the house scattering what was inside. they looked into my wallet and finding no money in it, left it.
i'm of course sad for all those things that i lost. but i'm ok. that is the most important part. it scares me thinking that, it could happen to me and i not know whats going on in the house.
i do feel that there is the possibility of them drugging me, but not enough to search my room. i woke up feeling heavy and blank. lately, i've had problems sleeping. i've been having dreams that make me tired when i wake up. but this morning i felt blank. like i had a really deep sleep.

all the memories i had. they were saved on the computer. i'm just so sorry that its lost.